12.26.2003
nOn-PiSsY bLoGeRiFiCnEsS !
I need sleep lol I'm soooo tired. Well, anyways, I've changed the time options on my blog thingy...and a correction on the last entry, it's TODAY, the 26th that is 8 months, you see it was the 26th when I was typing that, but since the site was 2 hours behind my time then it got posted as the 25th...no big deal, I'm just weird about these kind of things.
My haul:
*A bass (YES! It's a squier and it's black and it's sweet)
*An amp (just a lil one grawr)
*A guitar stand
*Guitar strap, bag, and other accessories
*2 hats
*A totally awesome Charlie Brown shirt (from my broits daaaark blue and it has a big charlie brown in the middle and little pictures you can barely see because the are in black. One is Charlie Brown looking into an empty mailbox [musta been valentines day]. Another is snoopy sleeping on top of his doghouse and Charlie brown is leaning against it sitting down w/ his eyes closed and smiling [he might be sleeping too]. The third is lucy pulling out the football when charlie brown is trying to kick it, and the last is charlie brown and lucy at lucy's psychiatric help booth. under all that it says GOOD GRIEF! World's Greatest Blockhead I LOVE IT!!)
*Thrice - The Artist in the Ambulance (omg love it!)
*Freaky Friday DVD
*Monty Python and the Holy Grail Special Edition DVD (If you don't like Monty Python: *in an outrrrrrrrageous French accent) I fart in your general direction, wiper of other people's bottoms. Now go away or I shall taunt you a second time!)
*A 64 CD wallet thingy
*$25 from "Uncle" Tom
*$50 from Uncle Ed
*$20 from dad because my mom was being a bitch (he was only supposed to be giving me $5)
*5 scratch-off lotto tickets from my cuz Jen (one won a free ticket lol)
*this white candle and a totally AWESOME silver colored stand for it from cuz Jen
*a foot spa set from my cuz Jen
*a scarf from my aunt and uncle
*5 powerball tickets from my aunt and uncle (no winners ='()
*the chocolate candie w/ different flavor creme in the middle from my aunt and uncle
*more candy
* more scratch offs ($2 this time)
*$25 for warehouse music
*an umbrella (absolutely NO CLUE there!)
hope yallz had good holidays too !! i thought since i was so pissy in my last blog that i'd try to keep this one not pissy lol.
if anyone is doing/has done The Music Man, email abbygail0308@yahoo.com or AIM abbygail08
same goes for You're A Good Man Charlie Brown
if anybody is in there school's Honor's Choir and is going to Clayton, MO for it on the 10th, contact me.
if anybody is in SIM City and is going to a regional competition for it at the end of January at the Science Center, contact me.
if anyone is into Peanuts, Harry Potter, or Lord Of the Rings, contact me.
And lastly if you think the whole "sex bracelets" thing is absolutely HILARIOUS, contact me.
Toodlers!
My haul:
*A bass (YES! It's a squier and it's black and it's sweet)
*An amp (just a lil one grawr)
*A guitar stand
*Guitar strap, bag, and other accessories
*2 hats
*A totally awesome Charlie Brown shirt (from my broits daaaark blue and it has a big charlie brown in the middle and little pictures you can barely see because the are in black. One is Charlie Brown looking into an empty mailbox [musta been valentines day]. Another is snoopy sleeping on top of his doghouse and Charlie brown is leaning against it sitting down w/ his eyes closed and smiling [he might be sleeping too]. The third is lucy pulling out the football when charlie brown is trying to kick it, and the last is charlie brown and lucy at lucy's psychiatric help booth. under all that it says GOOD GRIEF! World's Greatest Blockhead I LOVE IT!!)
*Thrice - The Artist in the Ambulance (omg love it!)
*Freaky Friday DVD
*Monty Python and the Holy Grail Special Edition DVD (If you don't like Monty Python: *in an outrrrrrrrageous French accent) I fart in your general direction, wiper of other people's bottoms. Now go away or I shall taunt you a second time!)
*A 64 CD wallet thingy
*$25 from "Uncle" Tom
*$50 from Uncle Ed
*$20 from dad because my mom was being a bitch (he was only supposed to be giving me $5)
*5 scratch-off lotto tickets from my cuz Jen (one won a free ticket lol)
*this white candle and a totally AWESOME silver colored stand for it from cuz Jen
*a foot spa set from my cuz Jen
*a scarf from my aunt and uncle
*5 powerball tickets from my aunt and uncle (no winners ='()
*the chocolate candie w/ different flavor creme in the middle from my aunt and uncle
*more candy
* more scratch offs ($2 this time)
*$25 for warehouse music
*an umbrella (absolutely NO CLUE there!)
hope yallz had good holidays too !! i thought since i was so pissy in my last blog that i'd try to keep this one not pissy lol.
if anyone is doing/has done The Music Man, email abbygail0308@yahoo.com or AIM abbygail08
same goes for You're A Good Man Charlie Brown
if anybody is in there school's Honor's Choir and is going to Clayton, MO for it on the 10th, contact me.
if anybody is in SIM City and is going to a regional competition for it at the end of January at the Science Center, contact me.
if anyone is into Peanuts, Harry Potter, or Lord Of the Rings, contact me.
And lastly if you think the whole "sex bracelets" thing is absolutely HILARIOUS, contact me.
Toodlers!
12.25.2003
bLoG bLoG bLoG bLoG bLoG !!
First blog...where shall we begin now?
First off, happy holidays, to anyone and everyone. Hope you all had nice (or are having if you are not done celebrating) times. Mine we surprisingly better than I expected. Well, this quote sums it up pretty well, except he's talking about summer:
"Dear Pencil-pal, did you have a nice summer? Mine could have been better, but it could have been worse. For me, that's good." - Charlie Brown
Yeah me...I'm not so good at having good days. Something always gets me depressed by the end of the day. It's been hard to...focus on the good things in life. I don't know who my friends are, in two senses. Some people have change...drastically, and not in the best ways either. Some people...I just don't know if they are really my friend or not. I guess for some people both apply, too. If I'm not aruging with one or some of my friends...then they are arguing with each other and trying to drag me into the middle. Man after dealing with shit like that since the 1st grade (I'm in 8th now) I'm fucking tired of it!
I feel like my friends treat me like an...optional friend or something. The only time I can talk to more than half of them is when it's just two of us! If we're in a group, I can't spit 3 fucking words out without being interupted by the friend I was talking to saying something to another friend. I have 2 friends whom I KNOW for sure, without a doubt will treat me like a good friend treats a good friend. And one of them I never get to see, seeing as she's in 9th and I'm in 8th.
Oh and then there's my love life. Let's see...I'm...tomboyish. I grew up with guys (when you're a little tomboyish girl who'd rather have a mud fight than play a rousing game of Pretty Pretty Princess, the other girls don't always like it!) and I get along well with them. I don't think bugs, rodents, or reptiles are icky, in fact I was the little girl turning over rocks at the playground to find worms, rollie-pollies, catterpillers, and crickers, who loved playing w/ rats, mice, hamsters and gerbils, and who was DYING to pet the boa constrictor when the guy who worked at the zoo came to school. My nails look horrible and I don't care. My hair isn't perfect and I don't care. I have 1 pair of shoes, and I don't care. I don't have a purse to match every outfit, and I don't care. My clothes are all "girlie" and "preppy", I even own and wear guys clothes. I hardly ever wear make-up. I'm not afraid of a baseball or softball. I'm not afraid of playing rough. I get along GREAT with guys! I'm totally one of them, too...I could hang out with them all day and be happy. So when I hang out with these guys...I get a crush on them, and then I get crushed when I find out "It would be weird 'cause she's my friend." It's like a fucking broken record, over and over again, and it DOESN'T hurt less everytime it happens...it hurts more EVERY fucking time.
The guy I like now...well, it's the biggest crush I've ever had. I've liked him for...oh, it's actually been 8 months that I've liked him to this day. No...I'm not so obsessed I know the date I fall in like with a guy...that was just the night of our first late rehersal for musical theatre club, and I had THAT written down. Well yeah...I like him longer than that I think...I had just pushed it aside, tried to forget about it, I dunno. Why'd I do that? Well...one my best friends liked him...a lot. So I thought, let her have her crush, hell, I'll even try and get them together! And I did, I tried to get him to ask her out. During rehersals, I'd talk to him when we weren't onstage...it was amazing! He could read my mind or something, somehow he knew exactly what I was thinking (for only knowing me about 4 months). I'd be saying you should ask B* out, and F would be like but you'd rather L ask YOU out, right? It's just weird man...I dunno
Well, spending so much time together by the first late night rehersals people were getting on people's nerves. This one girl was pissing me off soooo bad...she was acting like she was the fucking stage manager (hell no, never! if that ever happens I QUIT) when she sat backstage doing nothing but getting in people's ways! She was bossing me around when she was only there because of the hot guys! (I joined before I even KNEW the hot guys thank you very much, and she didn't join until she found out they were in it). And she just had me steaming...I was standing in this spot on the wall where its dimmer than the rest, so I wouldn't have people obsessing over me being all oh are you okay, what's the matter, blah blah blah when they don't even really care. (if they really cared about me then, they wouldn't have ditched me cuz their boyfriends or their friend's boyfriends didn't like me.) Well, F walks offstage and walks over and says what's the matter, and gave me a hug. Oh for those of you who've never known what's it's like to feel like you don't matter (it feels like SHIT, it sucks ass) you have no idea what this felt like for me. I had managed to hold my tears in before then, but that touched me sooo much that I broke down, and had to sit outside for a bit. That was the night my feelings for F were reincarnated and doubled.
Then there will just be random times seeing each other in the halls where he'd be like cheer up or turn that frown upside down.
At the school picnic, B and V, the people I was supposed to be hanging out with, totally ignored me when I was right there with them. It didn't help that I was upset because F was going out with someone. So I ended up having to spend the day around F and his g/f...sooooo depressing. But still...he obviously hadn't changed from the good ol' F I fell in "like" with. We were all standing in a circle talking, me on one side of F and his g/f on the other. At one point there, we were like the only two not talking and we looking at each other and he was kinda just looking into to my eyes...probably trying to figure out what was up with me that day. (Isn't it sad when the only person who notices you are upset is a guy who has a g/f he could be focusing all of his attention on?) And then I passed him when we were both walking home and we said bye, he gave me a hug, and (I am so pissed off at myself for being sooo rude:)asked if I was upset, I said no, asked if I was sick, said no, asked if i was tired, said no, and just kept walking, and I broke down crying again...because once again he was an angel in my life.
The last day of school came so quick, and it was both a sad and happy day. After the awards ceremony, everybody just got to roam around school signing yearbooks until we were let out. Of course, I had to say bye to F, he was going to be in highschool the next year and i wouldn't see him over the summer unless i was lucky. I don't even remember what I put in his, but his in mine was "To Abby, my best friend who was a tweety. Ha. Luv ya, F" and after I had gotten another hug and went to find other people I cried again (I cry a lot, didya notice?). I found out the next day, that F had broken up with his g/f the day before the last day of school.
And to this day, I STILL like him, though an awesome friend talked to him for me to return a favor, and now I know that "She's my friend...that would just be weird."
The curse of the tomboyish girl strikes once more.
*=No names!
F~my biggest crush ever
B~the friend who also liked F
L~the guy i liked to stop liking F
V~a friend who ditched me
If anyone has some advice please I want it! If anyone out there is good with people's lovelife situations, please analyze my "problem" and tell me what you think. abbygail0308@yahoo.com or AIM is abbygail08
First off, happy holidays, to anyone and everyone. Hope you all had nice (or are having if you are not done celebrating) times. Mine we surprisingly better than I expected. Well, this quote sums it up pretty well, except he's talking about summer:
"Dear Pencil-pal, did you have a nice summer? Mine could have been better, but it could have been worse. For me, that's good." - Charlie Brown
Yeah me...I'm not so good at having good days. Something always gets me depressed by the end of the day. It's been hard to...focus on the good things in life. I don't know who my friends are, in two senses. Some people have change...drastically, and not in the best ways either. Some people...I just don't know if they are really my friend or not. I guess for some people both apply, too. If I'm not aruging with one or some of my friends...then they are arguing with each other and trying to drag me into the middle. Man after dealing with shit like that since the 1st grade (I'm in 8th now) I'm fucking tired of it!
I feel like my friends treat me like an...optional friend or something. The only time I can talk to more than half of them is when it's just two of us! If we're in a group, I can't spit 3 fucking words out without being interupted by the friend I was talking to saying something to another friend. I have 2 friends whom I KNOW for sure, without a doubt will treat me like a good friend treats a good friend. And one of them I never get to see, seeing as she's in 9th and I'm in 8th.
Oh and then there's my love life. Let's see...I'm...tomboyish. I grew up with guys (when you're a little tomboyish girl who'd rather have a mud fight than play a rousing game of Pretty Pretty Princess, the other girls don't always like it!) and I get along well with them. I don't think bugs, rodents, or reptiles are icky, in fact I was the little girl turning over rocks at the playground to find worms, rollie-pollies, catterpillers, and crickers, who loved playing w/ rats, mice, hamsters and gerbils, and who was DYING to pet the boa constrictor when the guy who worked at the zoo came to school. My nails look horrible and I don't care. My hair isn't perfect and I don't care. I have 1 pair of shoes, and I don't care. I don't have a purse to match every outfit, and I don't care. My clothes are all "girlie" and "preppy", I even own and wear guys clothes. I hardly ever wear make-up. I'm not afraid of a baseball or softball. I'm not afraid of playing rough. I get along GREAT with guys! I'm totally one of them, too...I could hang out with them all day and be happy. So when I hang out with these guys...I get a crush on them, and then I get crushed when I find out "It would be weird 'cause she's my friend." It's like a fucking broken record, over and over again, and it DOESN'T hurt less everytime it happens...it hurts more EVERY fucking time.
The guy I like now...well, it's the biggest crush I've ever had. I've liked him for...oh, it's actually been 8 months that I've liked him to this day. No...I'm not so obsessed I know the date I fall in like with a guy...that was just the night of our first late rehersal for musical theatre club, and I had THAT written down. Well yeah...I like him longer than that I think...I had just pushed it aside, tried to forget about it, I dunno. Why'd I do that? Well...one my best friends liked him...a lot. So I thought, let her have her crush, hell, I'll even try and get them together! And I did, I tried to get him to ask her out. During rehersals, I'd talk to him when we weren't onstage...it was amazing! He could read my mind or something, somehow he knew exactly what I was thinking (for only knowing me about 4 months). I'd be saying you should ask B* out, and F would be like but you'd rather L ask YOU out, right? It's just weird man...I dunno
Well, spending so much time together by the first late night rehersals people were getting on people's nerves. This one girl was pissing me off soooo bad...she was acting like she was the fucking stage manager (hell no, never! if that ever happens I QUIT) when she sat backstage doing nothing but getting in people's ways! She was bossing me around when she was only there because of the hot guys! (I joined before I even KNEW the hot guys thank you very much, and she didn't join until she found out they were in it). And she just had me steaming...I was standing in this spot on the wall where its dimmer than the rest, so I wouldn't have people obsessing over me being all oh are you okay, what's the matter, blah blah blah when they don't even really care. (if they really cared about me then, they wouldn't have ditched me cuz their boyfriends or their friend's boyfriends didn't like me.) Well, F walks offstage and walks over and says what's the matter, and gave me a hug. Oh for those of you who've never known what's it's like to feel like you don't matter (it feels like SHIT, it sucks ass) you have no idea what this felt like for me. I had managed to hold my tears in before then, but that touched me sooo much that I broke down, and had to sit outside for a bit. That was the night my feelings for F were reincarnated and doubled.
Then there will just be random times seeing each other in the halls where he'd be like cheer up or turn that frown upside down.
At the school picnic, B and V, the people I was supposed to be hanging out with, totally ignored me when I was right there with them. It didn't help that I was upset because F was going out with someone. So I ended up having to spend the day around F and his g/f...sooooo depressing. But still...he obviously hadn't changed from the good ol' F I fell in "like" with. We were all standing in a circle talking, me on one side of F and his g/f on the other. At one point there, we were like the only two not talking and we looking at each other and he was kinda just looking into to my eyes...probably trying to figure out what was up with me that day. (Isn't it sad when the only person who notices you are upset is a guy who has a g/f he could be focusing all of his attention on?) And then I passed him when we were both walking home and we said bye, he gave me a hug, and (I am so pissed off at myself for being sooo rude:)asked if I was upset, I said no, asked if I was sick, said no, asked if i was tired, said no, and just kept walking, and I broke down crying again...because once again he was an angel in my life.
The last day of school came so quick, and it was both a sad and happy day. After the awards ceremony, everybody just got to roam around school signing yearbooks until we were let out. Of course, I had to say bye to F, he was going to be in highschool the next year and i wouldn't see him over the summer unless i was lucky. I don't even remember what I put in his, but his in mine was "To Abby, my best friend who was a tweety. Ha. Luv ya, F" and after I had gotten another hug and went to find other people I cried again (I cry a lot, didya notice?). I found out the next day, that F had broken up with his g/f the day before the last day of school.
And to this day, I STILL like him, though an awesome friend talked to him for me to return a favor, and now I know that "She's my friend...that would just be weird."
The curse of the tomboyish girl strikes once more.
*=No names!
F~my biggest crush ever
B~the friend who also liked F
L~the guy i liked to stop liking F
V~a friend who ditched me
If anyone has some advice please I want it! If anyone out there is good with people's lovelife situations, please analyze my "problem" and tell me what you think. abbygail0308@yahoo.com or AIM is abbygail08
